Struggeling to understand my own mind.....

   The End

fear disapates now let go.
hands forward in the dark, in search of the calm.
one false step and we fall away.
everything black with eyes wide open.
destination follows, light trickles through the cracks.
wieghtless freedom, no lurking thoughts provoking.
one infinite moment of satisfaction.
existing right here, right where we belong.
lessons taught, learned when their threw.

darkly feeling as your falling backwards, one last chance to hold on.
mind blackening confusion, hesitate now and you'll lose yourself.

one thought is worth one thousand pictures, one thousand will consume you.

feeling the hate decaying, helpess in the fallen's shadow.

slipping down the rabbit hole again.



deceased look upon our lives and see ~60-80 years as 1 second, 1 blink(really slow blink).
if 1 second equals our life time, then on average their life time should be ~1892160000 - 2522880000 Years long from our perspective.
what if life isnt infinite after death, maybe it's just really really really really long?

i am unable to coprehend the non existance of time, infinity.
can the dead coprehend the existance of time? non infinity?